getting back on board

it has been over two months, plus however long i lagged according to my last blog. turns out i'm a bit more sick than anticipated. but i am finally getting my rear in gear and pursuing medical help. what i thought may have been a common cold is most definitely not given its been almost 4 months that i've felt under the weather.

in this time my writing has lagged a lot. i'm stuck on one story, not wanting to write the other and literally just found another. my brain is so full that i need to figure out the best way to filter it so i don't overload. i think a decade of not writing has caught up with me now that i have finally found the perfect outlet.

i am pushing myself to enter more writing contests. no longer caring about the results or the feedback. yeah, yeah i hear what you're saying. but when one adjudicator says you did 'this' not so well but then another adjudicator on the same panel says you did 'this' great and you end up with conflicting critiques from them you learn that so long as they don't say that your writing is shit, its still good. my best friend, who has edited my last two novels for me, loves the third one. despite the fact that its previous submission in a contest called it lackluster, a woman who reads even more than i do who has seen all of my work calls it my best. and as much as i love her, she isn't the type to lie to me.

so i will move forward. if i'm going to be stuck at home resting then i'll be damned if i do nothing but sit on my butt and watch tv. i need to write more!

but i also feel i may need a change of scenery soon. not sure if that means leaving my current job, going back to freelance, trying to hit up cirque again or finding another tour. or just a vacation. maybe i should just take a month off and drive across canada. i don't know.

what i do know is i need to write and you need to read it.